Melodramatic Morrigan

Okay. So I’ve been a major Morrfail lately and I’ve not been posting in my blog. I’m pretty stressed out but I hope to get back into my groves this week. I don’t think it helps that I’ve been going to sleep at like 9PM, I must be getting old really. The last week or so has been relatively regular except for a few things, like my stepdad serving my mum with divorce papers. Bad day in the house.

So why am I Melodramatic Morrigan? Well last night, while watching Bones *Weird I know but keep reading* I realized something that made me very depressed.  I am twenty five with two kids and no opportunities for romance anymore. I’m going to die by my worst fear, alone. I was just thinking about how impossible it is to hold a romantic relationship with two kids, it’s hard enough without them. I can’t even think of a reason why someone would be interested in me.

So I was thinking about it and I’m 25, not very old, and my life is (proverbial) already over. I can’t image a person that would want to be with me romantically while I have kids, especially kids that are as young as they are. I am a romantic at heart and sometimes watching romantic movies, shows, reading books and all that jazz really hurts. I want would adore having someone romantically interested in me, but I know that isn’t possible for me anymore. I am not sure that I would be able to accept romantic interest without a lot of pushing from someone that is interested in me.

I’m very lonely and I fear I will always be lonely because there may be no room for romance left in my life and even if it showed up I’m not sure I would accept it or recognize it. I want it but how could I accept it?

Forever lonely,
Morrigan

About Morrigan

I'm a divorced mother of two trying to find a knack in life. I am unsure if I've found it yet but I'm working on it. It is one of those things that you have to take time to find and unfortunately I'm impatient.
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4 Comments

  1. Just because you have young children doesn’t mean people won’t be romantically interested in you. Maybe a single father will find you, or some other guy that doesn’t mind that you have children. After all, there are some guys out there like that.

  2. I sincerely appreciate the optimism. I really hope so. I guess it just seems bleak because it was hard before I got married, my ex was actually more or less my only romance before I got married, and now there are just more obstacles.

    I guess in a way it’s a blessing. I can be pretty convinced that if someone wants to be romantically interested in me despite the kids then they are taking a true interest because it is more of an involvement then with a relationship with just another person. So it can be a lot better then I’m making it out to be I’m just being a little overly dramatic because I’m lonely.

  3. I can completely understand the lonely part. I’m 26 and single.

    As a side note, I think this is the first (and only) blog of yours on here that I’ve seen that what you’re currently drinking is NOT Dr. Pepper.

  4. haha. Dr Pepper is my favorite drink. I think we were out of it at the time, or I went for a change.

    Perhaps that was my problem. Coke Zero Cherry throws my happiness balance off… I may have to check that.

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