Just wanted to let you all know… it is official! I am divorced. It was about an hour of deliberation in ERC (Early Resolution Council I think) and my ex is insane and obviously doesn’t know how much it costs to take care of two kids. Like seriously….. whatever though… Totally over it. He thinks he’s poor and picked on. I’m taking care of two kids, living at home without a job…. still…. after a year of freakin’ looking I still don’t have a job. I hate the job market. T_T It really sucks being out of the job industry for almost 4 years now, especially when my major was in a computer industry. 4 years lost in Computers is like 20 years lost in work… it seems impossible to catch up sometimes.

Well….. yay being divorced and now onto bigger and better things.

I’m considering writing a web comic. Maybe. I’m not too funny so it would be interesting…. That being said… I’m also not a very good artist so it would be interesting. ALTHOUGH! I did put the spork for Wootflakes onto the computer after my brother sort of designed him with my inspiration…. He’s not all that great though. It’s an idea though.

Have a good day everyone. ^_^

I believe in a lot of stuff and cosmic powers and protection of the dead and all of that sort of thing is part of it. I know that I am not always the nicest of people, I actually am a bottler, I prefer to keep it all inside until the bottle gets too full to keep the lid on and then it bubbles out and eventually erupts like someone shook it up.

To those that experience this…. I apologize. I don’t mean to lash out at you but most of the time I don’t properly channel my rage.
That being said. I would like to specifically apologize to Neph. You’re probably one of my best friends and I don’t mean to take any of my angry energy out on you.

Over the years I’ve worked on it… you guys should have seen me 7 years ago, just out of high school…. But this doesn’t mean that I have it completely under control and I’m sorry.

As for the subject of this… I think that my recent upset, fueled by my dead brother David’s birthday  -which is today mind you – was helped along by my brother. My unintentional rage got me banned from a favorite site of mine without warning… which I take offense to since I have been a part of this site for a year. I think that a warning, suspension or something a little more appropriate then an outright ban for snippy behavior, would have been more appropriate but who cares? I’ve taken the motto C’est La Vie for a reason. I think this reason was because my brother was trying to tell me that I need to calm down and start easing myself back into things I really enjoy instead of spending my time in an alternate reality with other people, that it’s time for me to probably start making my alternate realities and writing my own stuff again, take up my old hobbies, design websites again…. to really settle myself in my head instead of letting a whole bunch of other people dictate my musedom.

For this I love my brother even though I hate what happened (and the way it happened) and I hate not being able to enjoy the people there that I enjoyed for so long. To those that I hurt their feelings. I’m sorry loves.

I hoped you all have a fantastic day. <3333

PS. I’m going to get a comparison picture of my son and my brother David to show how much they look alike…. it’s uncanny.

So I went to war (as you probably could have seen from my twitter pictures) and have returned. Unfortunately since I’ve returned I’ve mostly stared at my websites like I didn’t know what they were or where they came from. Perhaps an after affect of pretending like the world hasn’t progressed in a few centuries as of a few centuries ago. It could be the reason why I had to come back from war early.

So… there I was! I was waking up on another frosty morning from war. My kids were making me laugh and I was enjoying there warm and fuzzy company when I find out that my mum had left the previous night. Confused and hungry my kids and I got up to get food.
After we scavenged for something to eat forever (about 5 minutes of looking in totes) we were told to call mom…..
Even more confused I pick up my faerie box, also known as a cell phone, and dial my mother…. it rang…. it rang again…. then she didn’t answer.
So! I left her a voicemail.
A few minutes later my faerie box (cell phone) began to sing the sweet tune of the Mario Brothers melody telling me that someone wished to speak to me from an unearthly realm so I pressed the green button to hear the melodic, depressed voice of my mother. I asked her what she needed me to call her about to find that my stepdad had moved out, taking everything of expensive value (the HD, plasma TV and all of the bedroom furniture) out of the house and spliting.
This was bad… particularly bad since we were at War and the only way we got there was with his truck and a trailer that he used to move the stuff out with.

After all of that amazing stuff we packed up camp and came home.

None of us kids want my stepdad back in the house but mum does so we’re waiting to see. We aren’t going to help much because we think that my stepdad’s douchebaggery crossed the line finally so yeah….. I had a not so good week but its gotten better since I have gotten home and talked to all of my buddies, Neph and Savvy and Sparky and people.

On another note!

I decided to go back looking for a way to earn a decent income online. I truly don’t think it’s possible but I still try while I still look for a job. really what I need to find is an awesome company that needs Internet tech support that can do their work from whereever as long as they have Internet connections, and do that. It would be fabulous. Unfortunately I don’t know if they do that. /sigh Well other ventures will be looked into.

I guess in a sense I have a question for you all…. what would you think about me starting a general tech support service. A small like, 5 dollar fee for me to help tech troubleshoot things for like half an hour. I mean it’s not much but I’m pretty good at what I do so I mean it might be worth it. I’m thinking about looking into it. That or a low cost web design thing. I’m not a phenomenal web designer but I think I do an alright job. I’m going to post a poll and see what you all think…. if anyone actually reads my blog… and I hope you guys give me some good stuff. Thanks in advance.

Just a smidgen fried. I just went to a parenting class, something required to get a divorce, and it was very informative but doesn’t help with the creative synapses. I got a lot of good input on how to help keep my kids from being alienated by me. I hope my soon to be ex-husband got the same information out of the class. You never know though. He may have went, sat through it to get the certificate and forgot everything. It’s entirely possible.

On a lighter note. I have a headache, 5 muses that aren’t working because they aren’t really mused at the moment and two kids that are refusing to go to sleep, one of which woke up after I returned home. I’m trying not to be frustrated but for gods sake she was asleep. I came inside, sat down and she’s awake and ready to play. I already know that I’m a mom and I don’t actually get a real break but for the love of George why can’t my kids sleep sometimes. >_< Just because they can be awake, doesn’t mean they have to be. It’s okay to sleep chicklins! I swear!!! I will be here when you wake up. If I’m not in the room…. I’m downstairs!

Well that’s it, I will do more website stuff after Fae’s class tomorrow.