Okay. So I’ve been a major Morrfail lately and I’ve not been posting in my blog. I’m pretty stressed out but I hope to get back into my groves this week. I don’t think it helps that I’ve been going to sleep at like 9PM, I must be getting old really. The last week or so has been relatively regular except for a few things, like my stepdad serving my mum with divorce papers. Bad day in the house.
So why am I Melodramatic Morrigan? Well last night, while watching Bones *Weird I know but keep reading* I realized something that made me very depressed. I am twenty five with two kids and no opportunities for romance anymore. I’m going to die by my worst fear, alone. I was just thinking about how impossible it is to hold a romantic relationship with two kids, it’s hard enough without them. I can’t even think of a reason why someone would be interested in me.
So I was thinking about it and I’m 25, not very old, and my life is (proverbial) already over. I can’t image a person that would want to be with me romantically while I have kids, especially kids that are as young as they are. I am a romantic at heart and sometimes watching romantic movies, shows, reading books and all that jazz really hurts. I want would adore having someone romantically interested in me, but I know that isn’t possible for me anymore. I am not sure that I would be able to accept romantic interest without a lot of pushing from someone that is interested in me.
I’m very lonely and I fear I will always be lonely because there may be no room for romance left in my life and even if it showed up I’m not sure I would accept it or recognize it. I want it but how could I accept it?
So yesterday I didn’t post. No excuse really, I fell asleep after a nice bath to soak my bones and muscles. It was a long day and I didn’t have the energy to do much after I put my kids to sleep.
So, onto the days activities (or yesterdays).
So I woke up and called my daughter’s teacher explaining that I couldn’t get her the vaccination and she said she’d call me back. She called me back and said that she’d work it out when I got to the class. We went to the class and there seemed to be no problems. Fantastic. Afterward it was a drive to the Zoo, waiting and then we got to go inside the zoo!
Well a zoo, like any other zoo, has a lot of animals and involves a lot of walking. With a two year old and a four year old (the forgotten stroller at home) it was a long day of looking and making sure they didn’t run away too far from me. Now this was probably one of the many times I’ve considered getting those child leashes. It was a lot of chasing and, sadly, yelling to make sure that my daughter didn’t run too far off with her friend Nate. Now I’m 25, I’m not old, I just don’t move very fast because I like to relax as I go. On top of that I was also carrying my son the entire time because he didn’t want to walk very often. Up, down, stop go. It was a long day and probably would have been better had I remembered the stroller for my son. >_<
We saw lots of animals. Giraffes I think was my daughter’s favorite along with the bear and the elephants and the monkeys and the horses.
I think my favorite part was either dancing on the endangered animal carousel between my kids OR! Petting the stingrays. They feel slimey but it’s awesome and my daughter got to touch one. Unfortunately she dropped the shrimp so she didn’t get to feed them. Yeah I’m weird but dancing on a carousel is hard because the centripetal force throws off your balance a little.
Also I think I took on Best Dressed Mom yesterday. I wore my black and white sundress with black goth boots and messy bun hair (which got messier from the son on the shoulders).
So it was a good day, long day and my kids had a ton of fun and I got to dance. All around win. It was even more win that my kids fell asleep almost the moment I started the car. It was cute and I’ll post the blurry pictures on twitpic here in a bit.
So i look through my spam, for this site for two reasons. the first to make sure that a valid comment isn’t sitting in the recesses of comment hell. The second reason is because the damn things are so funny. “You have such a great forum. My name is blah blah blah” or even better, I think the best one I saw in a while, “I tend to agree with the posts on this blog, but in this case I ought to say that I do not agree with this.” That one still makes me laugh after I’ve read it. That one is extra funny because it is an opinionated comment on a non-objective subject. The post was Not so interesting day which, for those that don’t want to go back and read it, was an entry about how the story I am trying to take off the hands of my brother is going to be difficult for me.
I mean really? How does that warrant a comment of:
“I tend to agree with the posts on this blog, but in this case I ought to say that I do not agree with this.”
It’s like it’s saying. “I agree with your opinions but this not opinion is not agreeable.” Or even better. “You’re WRONG! This is going to be easy as cake for you, you stupid whore!”
Spam and it’s entertainment value.
In other news! I have joined a few more forums and am trying to stay active on them but I also got a few members on my site and got quite a few posts done today. I hit over 100 posts on my own forum. I believe my threats of elephant genocide is working. Remember… Join Wootflakes or the Elephant gets it!!
On the news of wootflakes! I have posted my fourth ever comic today! Yay for staying steady. Go check it out. Tell me what you think! On top of that I added a Wootflakes fan page! Become a fan of Wootflakes and it’s kidney failing goodness! Do it or the baby elephants die. Don’t kill any more baby elephants.
What else got done today?
I watched Xena. Tried to to die with headachishness and children running around like mad. I did do my Yoga again today and actually should go to bed so I have time to go to do Yoga before I take my daughter to her socialization. I don’t know if I should even bother but I guess a few minutes is better then no minutes with her friends right? I’, still frustrated over the vaccination thing. I kind of wish I can feign refusal and that I didn’t want her to get it and then she can go. Wishful thinking. We’ll see.
Well goodnight! Hope you’re having a good day! ^_^
Well today was productive in the fact that my daughter’s teacher came and my daughter learned. I find my daughter might not be able to go to the zoo on Friday because she doesn’t have a vaccine. Bullshit IMO. They are full of fail. She obviously missed a vaccination in the traveling even though I’ve thought she’s always been up to date. Obviously my brain is broken because I like listened or something? But she didn’t get her stupid Chicken Pox one and that will prevent her from going to the zoo on Friday. *fail*
Worked a little on tomorrow’s comic. I will work on it more vigorously tomorrow morning and hopefully have it posted by the afternoon. You will see it tomorrow. I have the elements all made and so it just requires the put together part.
I wrote a bit of a fic before I wrote this. You’ll see a password protected entry, that’s because it’s not done but I published that so a friend could read it for me. When I complete that part I will post and either make that post public or give you the password. Either way, for now it is private.
Short post tonight. I’m tired.
PS. 3.1 Beta went live on the IPB boards today!!
PSS. Join Wootflakes or baby elephants will die!!
I was getting tired and I almost completely spaced posting my blog for the day. So updates…
Today was another day that I wasn’t feeling up to doing anything much. I had a headache most of the day and do not look forward to tomorrow. When I neglect cleaning I have to power clean more. Tomorrow is a power clean day because Fae’s Teacher will be here to teach her something new. I still need to clean my room from the things that I brought inside. It’s all crowded again. I need to get the clothes up, make my bed and go through the stuff that I brought in, most of which is craft stuff. It’s not hard but I’ve been working on Wootflakes mostly.
As for stuff that I got done today? Nothing out of the ordinary. Working with kids, working on website and trying not to pound my head on my keyboard. I feel that I got my main Wootflakes layout completed and so I have began to work on a red version of this layout and will push that momentum into creating a lot of colorful renditions of the box for any color lover. ^_^ I hope I tickle your fancy with them. Hopefully tomorrow I can get the Previous/Next links started and working. I added a link to the Archive since I forgot to put it there.
Tomorrow, remind me to post about the spam I get as it makes me lol. For now I’m going to sleep. Hope you’re having a good day.
PS. I changed Twitter updates to update once a week instead of once a day to cut down on the amount of twitter posts I have. ^_^
Okay, so I didn’t post a blog last night. My apologies. I’m sort of addicted to watching people play this trilogy of games, God of War. I watched my ex play through one and two and my brother got three a few days ago and last night I was watching him play until four in the morning…. well sort of. I fell asleep about 3 or four times in the process of watching him play but I was doing that last night instead of producing a fantastic blog for everyone to read. Why? Because I could and because I wanted to watch the epicness that is God of War. On top of that I was really a little (lot) disappointed with Alice in Wonderland.
Yeah! I’m a big Alice in Wonderland fan and I went to finally see Alice in Wonderland yesterday, as excited to see it as I’ve ever been, and I left feeling empty inside. It was like the movie was the perfect soup, it had all of the right ingredients but something was still off about it. I mean I think that making Alice in Wonderland dark and all that is a fantastic idea. I loved the cast, the director but not the movie. I think this movie was by far my biggest let down of a movie that I had ever seen. I don’t see many movies in theaters and I feel like I sort of wasted my time with watching this one instead of waiting until it came out on DVD. I probably should have just waited for Prince of Persia. Sadly? I think the credits were my favorite part. <_<
I think that’s it for my yesterday updates.
Today! I went to the Arboretum with my mum and kids and my mum’s friend Hilary and her kids. It was the first time I have been and it was enjoyable. It was like a nice long nature walk. Fun. I’m pretty sore from the adventure mostly because I don’t exercise a lot but I am thinking about taking up Yoga. I find that the Wii Fit *when I could find the silly thing* made me really happy with the Yoga stuff. I think I’ll be buying myself a new Wii and a new Wii fit since I have to send mine to my ex. I just need something calming that I think I need to start and end the day out with. Nothing too intense because it exhausts me and I prefer to relax and be more aware.
I’m putting together my newest webcomic. Another one that I will probably be the only one that understands the joke but if you want to understand it then please feel free to ask me, I’m always glad to fill you in on my bizarre bit of humor.
Okay, I’d probably talk and prattle on more but my brother is playing God of War and I have a comic to post tomorrow!
Hope you’re having a good day! ^_^