Debating my writing

So I actually got to writing the next chapter in my Dexter Fanfiction and I’ve come to an impasse. I ddon’t like the new direction that the previous chapter took me. Either I’m not liking how this chapter is coming out or I need something creative to point my character into a direction.

Now, lets be honest, it’s a fanfiction so I can have a bit of fun with it and I wanted a little bit of monster love in it so I could pivot my direction away from pure hate to pure lust and I don’t think I’d have a problem but my question is, do you think that would deter my normal reader. I honestly don’t know if it will or won’t. Every one of the people that have read it like it so far and I have already added the element in there.

So to romanticize or to not romanticize…. that is the question of a woman needing some romancing.

I think the answer is obvious but if you want to put forth your input read the story.

Current continuation chapter probably being sacked…. feel lucky I am sharing my unfinished work as I normally don’t.

Elizabeth ran a hand through her reddened hair. She didn’t like it but it was a precautionary measure, just like the colored contacts, the henna tattoo’s and the mass amounts of makeup. She turned herself into a goth because he knew what she looked like. It required a look drastically different enough that he wouldn’t recognize her.

The traits of a good monster was the ability to adapt.Elizabeth adapted well.When Dexter saw her he looked again and by then she was gone. She hoped he thought he was seeing a ghost.

Elizabeth had been stalking him for three weeks… maybe four? She was beginning to lose track. Without her steady routine one day ran into the next and then the next and it all seemed like one big exhausting blur of Dexter’s grinning face. It kept her up at night because when she slept she dreamt. The dreams growing more vivid, like he was attacking her through her dreams. They were no longer surreal dreams but more of lucid nightmares of being gutted one organ at a time.

She was in a living nightmare.
That was why tonight was the night.
There was no more waiting.
No more worrying.
No more dreaming.

If she got rid of Dexter then Elizabeth got rid of the nagging prophesy.She’d be able to fall back into her normal routine again.

Life would be better without Dexter.
At least her life would be better without Dexter.
Elizabeth tilted her head toward the floor with a final glance toward her adversary before she rounded the corner to prepare for the night.

She required strength.
She required willpower.
She required sleep.

Changes and Updates (from the Madness world)

Well I’ve not been updating this properly so I’m going to try and get back into this.

Firstly, I have turned off the Twitter feed into my blog. I thought it was alright to start off with but really it’s more or less just blog spam and I think it keeps me from posting properly in my blog so I apologize for that. I am trying to get back into a scheduled routine, Yoga, writing, baths, bed. Going to bed late is bad for me. T_T

Secondly, NaNo starts next month so get excited for more updates about my writing. I’m actually hoping to take this opportunity and write a full story and see if I can get it published. With how things are going in my life it actually seems like the best course of action and I’ve been world building an RPG that I will be using as the primary setting.

Thirdly I wanted to show everyone my awesome video! I am NO singer but I had fun and that’s all that counts so I will warn you now that any comments on how bad of a singer I am I will delete it immediately. It was done to have some fun. It is a Spoof of Amanda Palmer’s Leeds United song.

Lets see what else. My daughter is doing well in school although I’m having problems keeping my kids from fighting and keeping my sanity. I am easily frustrated and not having a significant other to share the responsibilities with makes my life really frustrating. I mean I have mum to help offset it (and she really does help and put up with my bratty kids)  but it’s really hard all around. Ijust need to work on breathing and patience. Hopefully Yoga will help, I need something to help center me and I think that it will help me with my patience issues. I hate being impatient but I’m having a hard time not being impatient.

In the coding world I’ve been developing a Character mod for IPB3. It’s working very well so far I’m adding and fixing things as I go. My current project is custom fields but I haven’t started working on it yet but I think it will be relatively easy, especially to override the UserInfoPane info.

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Today’s dilemma is something that I’m not sure should concern me. I’ve been wanting to create another character on my site which would make 10 (or 11 if you include DORIS) which would just solidify my role in having 10 out of the 20 characters on the site. Now while I don’t mind having a lot of characters (I’m active with each of them and none are in danger of anything) but I feel that it’s almost overkill to have so many characters. The problem is that I have so many ideas knocking around in my head and I want to play them out but I’m afraid that it would scare potential members that I am monopolizing the RP with my characters although it’s more because there are so few members that my characters aren’t offset by others’ characters. T_T It makes me feel bad because I have the most amount of characters but it also frustrates me because I want to make another character because I have a good idea and I think it should be my choice to make since it is my creative energy.

Now, I had decided last night to make the character and I’m back to being wishy washy on it. I think that it would be a great character to create but I think that I should hold off but that just artistically frustrates me and my muse. I think I will wait for a few more characters to show up before I make her and perhaps I will choose to write my NaNo story on the woman to put it out creatively.

Thanks for listening to my plight while I decided on this, although I still fight to not make the character I think that I will wait until the KoC story furthers and it has been around longer for her to step in or that we get 5-10 more characters on the site.

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Now the last thing I think of is site changes. I am going to change my layout here on Morrigan’s Madness. The colors should stay relatively the same as they are two of my favorites, it’s that or pink. I also am going to create a Listing and maybe start up a fanlisting or two. I will most likely begin to get my site linked at other places so look forward to seeing a lot of changes here on MM but they may be slow, my first priorities is scheduling my life, KoC and RPers Anon. I think that you will all enjoy the changes as I will be adding Twitter stuff, Facebook Stuff and more. ^_^

That’s it for now. Enjoy and thanks for reading.

TAKE THAT SPAM BITCHES!

Okay, I admit. I forgot to enable the Akismet spam checker right from the get go but now it’s on so stop bothering me you spam fuckers! I loathe spam with a fire hotter then hell! Spam is one of those evils that you wish would just die a burning death and then the world would be happier, but I doubt it. It would be one less thing for me to gripe about so I would need to find a new something to gripe about and that wouldn’t be fun…. Okay, it would be fun but I would pretend not to like it.

Things that I did today? I moved my stuff out of storage and into a garage! Real improvement huh? Well the rent is cheaper to store the same amount of stuff. After the storage stuff I cleaned.

You know what sucks about the storage thing though? My brother Kyle promised to help with it and yet when it came down to it he wouldn’t. Now I understand that he worked the graveyard last night but he knew that I was doing this today and he knew I needed his help and yet when I asked if he was ready all I got was “bitch, bitch, bitch”. Now I knew I shouldn’t be too demanding, he was supposed to be doing me a favor but that’s not the point. He promised he’d help and then he decided it was too hard and then he just didn’t help. It’s really stupid because he does this a lot and then he expects me to do things for him and be nice to him. He doesn’t quite understand that it doesn’t work that way, whatever. I guess next time he needs help really badly It will just be too hard to do it because I stayed up too late the night before and my kids woke me up too early.

I think I lost my train of thought for today. I cleaned I loved I moved stuff. There isn’t much more to the day.

The other day I saw an epic bike cop setup for catching red light runners on a “No turn on red” talk about hiding in plain site. He was sitting on the sidewalk of the freeway bridge. He owned someone as I passed by.

Website wise I didn’t get much done today. I am considering coding an IP.Content Wiki and I almost have all of the default Smilies replaced with my Ebi1 R0ot ones. Ebi1 is one cute spork. He still hates me for that.  I hope some more people join soon but probably not. It’s not all that great and all that jazz but I can be hopeful. I need more then one person to talk to. It gets boring only talking to a single person.

I think that’s it for tonight. I don’t feel extremely talkative so I hope you’re having a good day.

Eyeballs hurt

So this won’t be very long. My eyes hurt. I’m tired from a long day (going on 18 hours I think… maybe more). Wow, I’m sitting here telling you about how tired I am and you should just see the spelling mistakes. If it weren’t for a spell checker I’d be even more worse for wear and you’re eyes would bleed just from the spelling errors.

So things I did today? I went to Fae’s Socialization. It was fun and filled with love…. Lots and Lots of Love. It was a regular socialization. A little crazy and a little fun. I made sure and got one of my daughter’s friend’s mom’s phone number try and say that ten times fast) to have a play date next week I hope. I get along very well with the women in Fae’s class which makes me happy. They don’t seem at all bothered by my naturally eccentric behavior which is good.

You know I told myself not to forget things to put in this but you know what? My brain isn’t functioning properly so I forgot. I’m going to go to bed I’ll try and make a post in the morning.

Goodnight. Hope you’re having a nice day!