Okay. So I’ve been a major Morrfail lately and I’ve not been posting in my blog. I’m pretty stressed out but I hope to get back into my groves this week. I don’t think it helps that I’ve been going to sleep at like 9PM, I must be getting old really. The last week or so has been relatively regular except for a few things, like my stepdad serving my mum with divorce papers. Bad day in the house.
So why am I Melodramatic Morrigan? Well last night, while watching Bones *Weird I know but keep reading* I realized something that made me very depressed. I am twenty five with two kids and no opportunities for romance anymore. I’m going to die by my worst fear, alone. I was just thinking about how impossible it is to hold a romantic relationship with two kids, it’s hard enough without them. I can’t even think of a reason why someone would be interested in me.
So I was thinking about it and I’m 25, not very old, and my life is (proverbial) already over. I can’t image a person that would want to be with me romantically while I have kids, especially kids that are as young as they are. I am a romantic at heart and sometimes watching romantic movies, shows, reading books and all that jazz really hurts. I want would adore having someone romantically interested in me, but I know that isn’t possible for me anymore. I am not sure that I would be able to accept romantic interest without a lot of pushing from someone that is interested in me.
I’m very lonely and I fear I will always be lonely because there may be no room for romance left in my life and even if it showed up I’m not sure I would accept it or recognize it. I want it but how could I accept it?
Well! I was successful! I was able to complete my second comic, on TIME! I know amazing right? Just wait until next week…. when it doesn’t come…. Well it doesn’t matter, next week isn’t here yet and so I present you with my on time comic of Moving Angst:
Visit it, join my site, all that lemming stuff that people do. Just remember, when I start going to comic cons… I will not remember you. Wait? Is that backwards? Is it that you won’t remember me? It sort of makes me wish that maybe Adult swim will pick up on it, endorse it and then make it into a cartoon. I’d be happy if it were a cartoon, I think.
Well… That being said lets continue on with my successes for the day. I don’t think there were many.
I got my comic done. I started on my “homework” which was actually coloring for my daughter that I have to power through and may actually stay up later then I should tonight to make sure to get done for tomorrow’s socialization. OH! And aren’t I the great mom? I made a play date at the park for my daughter completely forgetting I wouldn’t even be home to fulfill it. Morrfail! Thankfully I have a brother willing to go down and fix the error because I’d love the chance to have a friend for my daughter to play with the girl. She was wearing a cinderella dress for Christ’s sake. These kids were made to be BFFs forever! I serious
Besides my comic and coloring I started on Wootflakes smilies. They are of Eb1l R0ot and totally cute. I didn’t get many done but I did get a few of the key ones completed. I think my favorite so far is the Blink smiley.
Really this is going to be like my shortest post for a while. I haven’t much to talk about, I’m tired and I should probably be in bed because I have to be awake soon…. I do want to say that I’m considering making something of a “artistic” contest for a Morrigan made layout on IPB. I’m unsure. I’m not fantastic but I wouldn’t mind the Wootflakes exposure. I guess if you’re interested them PM me and I will probably start it. It would probably be something of a… well I don’t know. Only 3 or 4 people have said they liked my layout and I sort of always have odd layouts that don’t always have every piece finished so I’m not even sure if anyone would care about the stakes but I might do it… might being the operative word depending on interest.
Okay. I think that’s it for the night. My brain is slowly melting and if I don’t want to be less there in the morning I should go to bed now so it doesn’t leak from my ears.
Goodnight all! Hope you’re having a good day!
Okay… Admittedly that was terrible. I should not use overused movie quotes as my titles but really? I was just in the mood. Maybe this means I need to watch 300? I don’t know. Perhaps. Well updates!
Yesterday was a fantastic day!! I got a call back for a job! Even better? It’s at University of Phoenix. I wasn’t prepared for the Phone Interview that came with the call but I guess I did swimmingly as they want a face to face interview on Wednesday! Now I need to plan my outfit. I was thinking my Green Jacket with something cute. I was hoping I might have the money to buy something worth my time to wear to an interview, because I don’t think anything I have is nice enough, IMHO, so I will be trying to put together something that pronounces my good attitude in life. If I get the job you bet I would be absolutely fantastic at it! I really need one and working at UoP would also mean that I could go back to school. You KNOW I would take advantage of that!
What else? Well I’m teaching my daughter a Noisettes song, Specifically Never forget you. It’s cute to see her sing it with the first lines specifically. “Whatcha drinkin’? Rum or Whiskey? What don’t cha have a… double with me?” So cute and she’s just starting to remember them without me. 🙂 When she gets it all down I’m recording it and youtubing! Look forward to that!
Otherwise, life is normal I think. Bills to pay… Headaches to get…. Eyes to gouge out. You know, the usual. <3 everyone have a good time!