Behind the Grind

While I, as a RPers, know what it is like to be behind the grind of your posts being behind on NaNo is exhausting. At least on a RP you can tell someone that your reply may take a few days and then you have a grace period with NaNo if you get behind it’s like a scramble to get caught up. I didn’t NaNo for 5 days because I was exhausted after my daughter’s birthday and I’m still behind. I feel like I’m never going to get caught up writing 2K to 2.5K every night before bed and I’m still 2.5K words behind.

It’s tiring! Good gravy it’s tiring! I stay up until midnight every night and get up at 6:30 every morning. I’m ready for a break! The only problem with taking a break means that I have to do more catching up.

No rest for the weary I guess.

I’m hoping that here in the next day or so I will get caught up. Zayzie has been helping me push to get the words out but I haven’t surpassed quite yet. I know that the Writer’s chat room helps.

OH! WTF Batman!? I write similar to the way I RP but I have a particular tactic that I make sure my story is cohesive and if something doesn’t work right that is stopping my ability to continue forward then I fix it before I continue. WHY the HELL!? would everyone sit here and tell me to skip it and move on. If it’s not working right now how in the hell is skipping it to go to the next part going to make it any better? All I’m doing is continuing the dredge of the not making sense world and it won’t make any more senseĀ  if I keep writing or not. In fact it will probably make less sense and then I’ll just have a mass jumble of words by the end of it. Don’t tell me to just “skip it”! That doesn’t work. Skipping the problem doesn’t make the problem go away. Trust me, I have an ex husband and if I could skip over the problem I would but I can’t. It has to make sense or else I dwell, IĀ  brood, and I can’t write. I have to fix the problem!!! I don’t understand how anyone thinks that skipping the problem will make it go away or make it work somehow. Changing/fixing is the only way to go. Ask Tim Gunn.

RAWR!!!!!!!!

Note to everyone that wants to help me when I say a scene isn’t working:

  • Cheer me on!
  • Help me work it out!
  • Give me a pat on the back!
  • Snug me!
  • HELP ME!
  • DON’T, FOR THE LOVE OF ALL THINGS LIVING, TELL ME TO SKIP IT! That fucking aggravates me more then life itself!

Also, for the past few weeks my life (particularly my driving life) was filled with music fail. First, on the cable Dance channel there was all medium speed unfamiliar dance music and it wasn’t all that dancey, it was more of a trance and it wasn’t inspiring to do anything. Then in the car, every time I get in, either it was the same song or the commercials for most of my trip. I mean, commercials keep music free but seriously!? I don’t spend that much time in the car and listening to commercials is just major fail and it was bull!

Thank you for listening. Until next time everyone. Same Morr time, same Morr channel!

NaNo Woes (choosing the right plot)

So NaNo starts in just a few days (you’ll see a NaNo widget go up into the sidebar when it does and I would appreciate cheerleaders and support during this treacherous and tumultuous torment of tantalizing typing) and I’m at a loss for what to write. Now don’t get me wrong, I know the genre, I know the world, I know most of the characters but it’s the story that I don’t know about.

To explain further. I’ve started a world originally inspired but the music group Muse that eventually became it’s own little place in the fiction setting and is now a complete world, with maps, and gizmos, an way of life and everything. It’s a Futuristic Dystopian society and if you want to take a peek feel free. The place is called Knights of Cydonia. So that being said, I have the setting and I have quite a few plots as I have quite a few characters to follow along with arcs that encompass them all. My problem is which story should I start off with.

The story that I want to write, because I am putting off creating the character in the game right now, is a story about my character Mordria, who is a Gypsy that gets driven away from her family pack. It is an inspiring little story because I have the beginning (minus the introductions that I like to do) all planned out in my head. The problem? Is I don’t really have a direction to go with it. I don’t have middle even though I do have an end. So I can’t write a story without the meat but I don’t know what her purpose is in the story in my head.

Now on the other hand I have a completely thought out, what should happen from beginning to end story but after considering what is involved to happen I don’t think it’s the first book and starting in the middle of a series just seems silly but it might be my best option at this point but it doesn’t alleviate the problem that it’s not half as inspiring as the Mordria plot although it is more developed.

Another possibility, of course, is that I spend the next six days pondering the beginning. What started what I have now in the world. How far back do I want to go? I mean the site has a 1100 year old history. Should I write a story about the breakdown in society? I think that’s one of those chronicle books that comes out way after ta majority of others but it would technically be the beginning. When the government rose to power and did their dastardly things but I sort of want to keep some of that stuff safe from the readers and expose it like a blooming flower. I could also go with a Samuel Gufner time line, when the knights were founded but that’s again something that I don’t want to fully expose until later.

I have been developing this world for 6+ months and I don’t know where the beginning is. I guess my best bet would be to start with a character that is involved in it.

Theresa Pulsar would be the character for the New Born Program along with her husband Casius and their family. Again New Born Program is not the beginning of the story.
Violet could be a good start but the question is I don’t know where she begins and her story ends. I think what I should do is start with Julian and Violet. Maybe something romantic! NO! I have it. Julian, Violet, Fillip falling out! This will work wonders…. Maybe. I think it will. This will be perfect. the Story Arc will be Violet’s falling apart, my plan for her in the game so this will be a fun story to write.

Thanks for listening to me get it in order. Story to write: Violet’s falling out with the Knights and her redemption.

Bob Marley in Final Fantasy!!

So I’ve been having this problem the last few days where I have been ready for bed WAY earlier then normal. Oftentimes I am able to stay up until 1-4 in the morning and still be up early with my kids *around 7-10*. Lets be honest, it may not be good for me but it sure is fun!! So the past few nights I’ve been ready to sleep before 10PM even hits. Now I’m not young anymore but I’m not THAT old. I should still be able to stay up past a certain time and be able to function properly. I think it just sucks because I’m sure I know WHY I feel so tired this early but I have nothing to really fill the time to make me want to stay up. (Join Wootflakes or a baby elephant will die)

Onto another topic… Final Fantasy 13. You haven’t heard enough about it? Well AWESOME!!! I don’t have much to say. It’s pretty, like each Final Fantasy game in seasons passed have been, it’s got things that you summon (which appear to each be some sort of riding thing) and it has a Bob Marley guy named Sazh that has the goofiest little profile portrait in the world. Seriously look:

Sazh funny face

Bob Marley for Final Fantasy

Do you see what I mean? This guy has the funniest little portrait picture in the world.

The Cheesy grin, the little thumbs up. I seriously can’t help but laugh every time I see the bloody thing. Then as I laugh my brother CJ, who plays the game, laughs. It just entertains me.

On the brighter side? I think that little Chocobo that he carries around with him makes him completely full of win. That and the fact that he shoots guns all wicked behind his back and above his head. That’s all the spoilers that you get because really? That’s all I’ve watched. <_<

What else to update on? OH! My brother finished playing God of War and I was asleep for it. Sad days but I will watch it eventually. I love the game enough to play it myself if I had the time, which I will make for myself in the future when things are more settled down in my life then it is right now.

Other things? Oh yes! I had meant to talk about this yesterday but I didn’t have the mind about me to remember to talk about it. So here goes:
So I have Twitter. Fantastic crowd follower right? Well anyways. I get email updates when people follow me. Why? Because I like to check out who is following me so if they interest me or are a friend I can follow them back. All stuff you know about Twitter you say? Well how about this?

I HATE PEOPLE THAT FOLLOW YOU TO UNFOLLOW YOU!

Good god! I sit here and I get these random people, random company type people and I get emails that say that they are following me. I go to check them out and they either just randomly followed me or they had already unfollowed me by the time I went to look them up. Worse still? It’s not like I hide my updates so it’s not like you need to follow me in order to see my posts.

Continuing on the Twitter follow tangent though, I’ve figured out why people (or assumed rather) do it. It’s because they want more followers and they assume if they mass follow then people will come check them out and then they’d get more followers. Or something like that. Pretty much it has to do with marketing their Twitter accounts in annoying ways.

Stupid heads!

Alright! What else is there to talk about today? OH YEAH!

NEW WOOTFLAKES WEBCOMIC!!!!

For shame on me. I haven’t been updating you guys on my writing and my world. Well I’ve not done much with it lately. Mostly because I’ve been focused on other tasks. Namely keeping other things in order and putting together my website. I am working on getting a few things done this week and hopefully this weekend I will be able to pick it back up again. I still have to figure out next weeks webcomic!! YAY!

I cleaned my stuff up in the garage so the Garage is clean, I was dirty until I took a shower, and cars can be parked in it. Now I just have to do all of the laundry that was brought in from the bags out there, clean up my room from the stuff that was brought inside, and make a secret device that automatically cleans everything as my kids make a mess.

Last thing for the night. I intend to start rollerskating for exercise, that or Yoga. I think Yoga might be more my thing but I’m going to start one of them here shortly. I really wish that I could just do more Wii Fit. I found it extremely relaxing to do. Well if I get a Yoga thing maybe I can just turn the sound off and follow the destructions without much of a problem. Once I get the technique down I’m sure that I could just turn on some relaxing ocean sounds and make up my own routine. I might also combine the yoga and the skating, the skating more for cardio.

You know? Now that I’m on the subject I want to complain about Cardio. I HATE working up a sweat I hate when my heart feels like it’s going to beat out of my chest and my lungs are going to explode. I know that’s partially from lack of exercise but I really HATE it. It is the worst form of staying in shape because I just hate doing it. I hate feeling icky just to be more healthy. That’s probably why I like Yoga more then other forms of fitness but skating might be an okay alternative. As long as I do it either early in the morning or after my kids go to bed in the evening. I live in AZ, I’m going to be realistic here, going outside when it’s hot SUCKS royally. So going out at cooler times when it’s summer (it will be around 90-110 no matter what) is a good plan.

Okay. I think that’s it for me tonight. Goodnight everyone! I hope you’re having a good day. ^_^