So I feel that my Morrgroove or Morrmojo or Mojo-Jojo is gone and never coming back. I feel uninspired dull and downright blechy most days. I’ll sit at my computer and things that make me inspired and happy to do online feel like chores. It’s not supposed to be this way. My hobbies should feel fun and exciting to come home to. I should want to get all of my other stuff out of the way so I can sit down and enjoy the happy things and life. But I don’t and it depresses me.

So the normal responses that I’m sure I’ll here is “Get a new hobby” or “If it depresses you then find out why” well I don’t know why. I love being at my computer. I love writing. I love coding websites. I love making images. I LOVE Rping and yet all of these things don’t inspire me at all.  This could be the 12 hour days at work but really if that’s what is killing it for me then why did I enjoy them in the first place? Because it killed time? I used to itch to get home and turn on my laptop and see all the amazing things I missed that day and regret missing it. Now it’s just one more thing I need to do.

I need my Morrmuse back. It’s gone and I can’t find it. If you see her please send her straight back with my brain. It would be muchly appreciated.

Well today was productive in the fact that my daughter’s teacher came and my daughter learned. I find my daughter might not be able to go to the zoo on Friday because she doesn’t have a vaccine. Bullshit IMO. They are full of fail. She obviously missed a vaccination in the traveling even though I’ve thought she’s always been up to date. Obviously my brain is broken because I like listened or something? But she didn’t get her stupid Chicken Pox one and that will prevent her from going to the zoo on Friday. *fail*

Worked a little on tomorrow’s comic. I will work on it more vigorously tomorrow morning and hopefully have it posted by the afternoon. You will see it tomorrow. I have the elements all made and so it just requires the put together part.

I wrote a bit of a fic before I wrote this. You’ll see a password protected entry, that’s because it’s not done but I published that so a friend could read it for me. When I complete that part I will post and either make that post public or give you the password. Either way, for now it is private.

Short post tonight. I’m tired.

PS. 3.1 Beta went live on the IPB boards today!!

PSS. Join Wootflakes or baby elephants will die!!

Not much done today. I watched a lot of Dr Who. I cried to a lot of Dr Who. I didn’t realize that I hadn’t watched season for of Dr Who but I have now and cried another river and will probably cry more. I think Dr Who is one of the most depressing awesome Sci-Fi shows ever. None of it negates the depressing though. I sort of want to write a Dr Who Fanfic about my travelling with the Doctor. I want to be the Doctors love. I love him and he makes me so depressed but I love him anyways.

I’m watching the movie after season 4 and then I’m going to go web surfing for the Season 5 which will probably just depress me further because David Tennant isn’t in it. T_T I am all for Doctor Rose stuff. Of course Doctor Donna isn’t too bad either! ^_^

What else for today? Well nothing really. Kids, Dr Who….

WELL! There was this one thing with this guy on the IPB forums but he’s starting to get on my nerves. I’m about ready to utilize the Ignore system for the second time ever and it will be the second time in less then a month. Why do I have to be so nice to people? I mean I’m not here. If anything I’m downright rude most of the time because I’m just mean and it shows but I try not to be. I mean I’m a moody bitch but I’m not really all that cruel but sometimes I want to be. Blunt. That’s the word, blunt or brash. I’m just rarely able to turn that filter on but I am nice enough, when I’m not annoyed.

Whatever I guess. C’est La Vie as I always say. I will see what tomorrow brings me for a day. Depending on how it goes depends on if I utilize the ignore function.

Hope you’re having a smashing day!!

Gah! I’m having naughty thoughts about not posting a blog tonight. I’ve been bad enough barely even posting a blog the past few days for lack of motivation (meaning I’ve been tired and not willing enough to push out a better post then what I did) and so I’ve been naughty. This is my outlet to try and keep me a little more sane then I normally am and to just have a place to vent a little.

So today’s adventures. My mum kept pushing and poking until I went to church with her. FAIL! I mean I am not an atheist by the furthest stretch of the imagination but I’m also not Mormon anymore, I haven’t been for almost a decade. Come to think of it I find that a lot of changes in my life happened when I was 17 because that was when I also lost faith in the Mormon church. Now my mum’s Mormon, which is good and well, they have been really awesome in helping her out in this hard time, but I’m not anymore. SO! I went to church with her today and I hated it, as I knew I would. It’s boring and short of learning more ammunition for why I am not Christian any longer I don’t learn anything of value. I only let my kids go because it’s like a free play group. <_< I know… I’m bad.

What else? Nothing really. Today has been a rather boring day. It was mostly because over half of it was wasted on the waste winds of Waste Church. Bleh. It sucks. I think I got one Smiley done today and the rest of the time I’ve been a little nostalgic and missing my old site but whatever. If they’d rather ban me then pretty much say, “Listen Bitch, do what we say or else” then that’s their perogative. I really didn’t even realize I had done anything wrong until the ban message. How sad is that? C’est La Vie I guess. Doesn’t make it any better or me any happier that my friends from there don’t talk to me so much or that I got mad at some of them and told them I didn’t want to talk to them anymore. T_T Whatever. I am past it and onto better things I hope. I know it’s for the better because I’m not consumed by the site like I used to be. I still miss the people though.

I did talk to Sparky a bit today but she seemed distracted so I left her alone and Arkasel always seems distracted and I don’t think Neph cares to talk to me at all anymore. Whatever I guess.

ON A BETTER NOTE!

I think I have a majority of my webcomic for this week planned out. I haven’t started working on it yet but I have considered what I am doing. It will be NEXT weeks webcomic that I will have to be worried about. Remember that wit and comedy that I told you that I don’t have? Well I really don’t have it and once I play out this weeks comic then I think I will be tapped dry. My brother suggested an idea but I am unsure if I want to use it right away, we will see, I might. It’s corny but funny and probably worth it just for the “facepalm lol” factor. We’ll see.

I NEED MORE MEMBERS! Go to WOOTFLAKES and join. It doesn’t matter who you are, if you want to make me to smile and keep writing comics then you should come and talk to me on my forum! Alright…. You don’t have to but you would certainly make me feel warm and fuzzy if you joined and helped me get the commiunity started off by posting in topics starting some, making suggestions. All that awesome forum stuff. ^_^

Alright. I think that’s it for the night. I’m going to probably shut down my depressing computer and watch Dr Who (which will probably just depress me further, BAARROOOWMAN!!! *shakes fist*)

<3333 you all and Hope you are having a good day!

Okay, I admit. I forgot to enable the Akismet spam checker right from the get go but now it’s on so stop bothering me you spam fuckers! I loathe spam with a fire hotter then hell! Spam is one of those evils that you wish would just die a burning death and then the world would be happier, but I doubt it. It would be one less thing for me to gripe about so I would need to find a new something to gripe about and that wouldn’t be fun…. Okay, it would be fun but I would pretend not to like it.

Things that I did today? I moved my stuff out of storage and into a garage! Real improvement huh? Well the rent is cheaper to store the same amount of stuff. After the storage stuff I cleaned.

You know what sucks about the storage thing though? My brother Kyle promised to help with it and yet when it came down to it he wouldn’t. Now I understand that he worked the graveyard last night but he knew that I was doing this today and he knew I needed his help and yet when I asked if he was ready all I got was “bitch, bitch, bitch”. Now I knew I shouldn’t be too demanding, he was supposed to be doing me a favor but that’s not the point. He promised he’d help and then he decided it was too hard and then he just didn’t help. It’s really stupid because he does this a lot and then he expects me to do things for him and be nice to him. He doesn’t quite understand that it doesn’t work that way, whatever. I guess next time he needs help really badly It will just be too hard to do it because I stayed up too late the night before and my kids woke me up too early.

I think I lost my train of thought for today. I cleaned I loved I moved stuff. There isn’t much more to the day.

The other day I saw an epic bike cop setup for catching red light runners on a “No turn on red” talk about hiding in plain site. He was sitting on the sidewalk of the freeway bridge. He owned someone as I passed by.

Website wise I didn’t get much done today. I am considering coding an IP.Content Wiki and I almost have all of the default Smilies replaced with my Ebi1 R0ot ones. Ebi1 is one cute spork. He still hates me for that.  I hope some more people join soon but probably not. It’s not all that great and all that jazz but I can be hopeful. I need more then one person to talk to. It gets boring only talking to a single person.

I think that’s it for tonight. I don’t feel extremely talkative so I hope you’re having a good day.

So this won’t be very long. My eyes hurt. I’m tired from a long day (going on 18 hours I think… maybe more). Wow, I’m sitting here telling you about how tired I am and you should just see the spelling mistakes. If it weren’t for a spell checker I’d be even more worse for wear and you’re eyes would bleed just from the spelling errors.

So things I did today? I went to Fae’s Socialization. It was fun and filled with love…. Lots and Lots of Love. It was a regular socialization. A little crazy and a little fun. I made sure and got one of my daughter’s friend’s mom’s phone number try and say that ten times fast) to have a play date next week I hope. I get along very well with the women in Fae’s class which makes me happy. They don’t seem at all bothered by my naturally eccentric behavior which is good.

You know I told myself not to forget things to put in this but you know what? My brain isn’t functioning properly so I forgot. I’m going to go to bed I’ll try and make a post in the morning.

Goodnight. Hope you’re having a nice day!