Editing

Oh the pain and pleasure of editing!

Pretty much I have gotten stuck somewhere around chapter 7 which is 50 pages into the story. Now I know why I’m stuck, I have neglected important information that one of the characters needs in order to continue on. Well that is never a good thing and often time gets to what I’m stuck in… writer’s block. I’m not fully blocked I’m just having a hard time continuing with the story since the character that needs the information doesn’t have it. So what should I do?

Well if you are like half of the other writers that I know that say “just keep writing” then leave me be. You obviously have no idea, not only how, but why my brain works the way it does. If you are a psychologist perhaps you could tell me. Pretty much, since the story doesn’t have the information my muse/character/person that I’m writing for refuses to continue to write as if they have the information. since they refuse to write I have to go back and fix it. Why not power through it like half of the other writers in the world seem to think I should? Because it doesn’t feel right, it doesn’t work to just keep going. If the character needs the information just powering through it may leave that information out, even in edits. So my brain shuts down until I fix it.

So that being said I have been working on re-reading the previous parts of my story and editing as I go to find the best place to interject the information that I need, to add it so that the character has it. now re-reading some of my chapters I see some of the more major flaws that I had in them. They are even a little stale or lacking in detail which makes me glad for this initial re-write. It makes me happy that I can question my motivation and how I’m portraying the information to the reader. I now know that I need to put forth more detail in my work.

More mannerisms, more information. I realize that I show absolutely no motivation or information for why Fillip or Violet are the way they are or even what happened to Violet and Kane. After this realization I also realized that I never intended to elaborate so you would just have to deal with half the information that you would need to properly understand the character dynamics between them so I need to add that information in somewhere as well. Like how long have Violet, Fillip and Kane known each other? Are they friends? Lovers? Have they ever been? Will they ever be again? What is their relation to one another in the story? While I know that information, I realize that I’m not providing that information to the reader. So in essence a pre-edit edit to fix my writers block is proving to be a good thing.

 

In other news I am thinking about finishing Card Rebellion, the Alice in Wonderland RP I was wanting to work on. I have it half done. I need to finish the detail information and the premade list and once I’ve done that then I think it would be ready. I think I would definitely need a reliable co-admin, someone that could be there when I’m not. Unfortunately I can never seem to find one of those.

Madness news we have a Facebook Connect app so if you like my facebook page you will get Madness updates every time I post. So please do so and you will get e-cookies. I may also be adding a Facebook widget to the sidebar so I can see who loves me most. <333 😉

I have also joined a few Sites, if you want to friend or add me on them just send me a message in any fashion you know how to get a hold of me (which normally is a lot of ways) or PM me on the site directly. The sites I’ve joined are as follows:
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Add me, follow me, whatever. I <33 you if you want to chat. Definitely have no problem doing it while I’m online.

Lastly, I think, Knights of Cydonia is doing very well. The activity picked up last week so if you want to be a part of my story book world before it even reaches print (it’s sort of a laxer AU version but it works) then come check us out and join Knights of Cydonia!

Behind the Grind

While I, as a RPers, know what it is like to be behind the grind of your posts being behind on NaNo is exhausting. At least on a RP you can tell someone that your reply may take a few days and then you have a grace period with NaNo if you get behind it’s like a scramble to get caught up. I didn’t NaNo for 5 days because I was exhausted after my daughter’s birthday and I’m still behind. I feel like I’m never going to get caught up writing 2K to 2.5K every night before bed and I’m still 2.5K words behind.

It’s tiring! Good gravy it’s tiring! I stay up until midnight every night and get up at 6:30 every morning. I’m ready for a break! The only problem with taking a break means that I have to do more catching up.

No rest for the weary I guess.

I’m hoping that here in the next day or so I will get caught up. Zayzie has been helping me push to get the words out but I haven’t surpassed quite yet. I know that the Writer’s chat room helps.

OH! WTF Batman!? I write similar to the way I RP but I have a particular tactic that I make sure my story is cohesive and if something doesn’t work right that is stopping my ability to continue forward then I fix it before I continue. WHY the HELL!? would everyone sit here and tell me to skip it and move on. If it’s not working right now how in the hell is skipping it to go to the next part going to make it any better? All I’m doing is continuing the dredge of the not making sense world and it won’t make any more sense  if I keep writing or not. In fact it will probably make less sense and then I’ll just have a mass jumble of words by the end of it. Don’t tell me to just “skip it”! That doesn’t work. Skipping the problem doesn’t make the problem go away. Trust me, I have an ex husband and if I could skip over the problem I would but I can’t. It has to make sense or else I dwell, I  brood, and I can’t write. I have to fix the problem!!! I don’t understand how anyone thinks that skipping the problem will make it go away or make it work somehow. Changing/fixing is the only way to go. Ask Tim Gunn.

RAWR!!!!!!!!

Note to everyone that wants to help me when I say a scene isn’t working:

  • Cheer me on!
  • Help me work it out!
  • Give me a pat on the back!
  • Snug me!
  • HELP ME!
  • DON’T, FOR THE LOVE OF ALL THINGS LIVING, TELL ME TO SKIP IT! That fucking aggravates me more then life itself!

Also, for the past few weeks my life (particularly my driving life) was filled with music fail. First, on the cable Dance channel there was all medium speed unfamiliar dance music and it wasn’t all that dancey, it was more of a trance and it wasn’t inspiring to do anything. Then in the car, every time I get in, either it was the same song or the commercials for most of my trip. I mean, commercials keep music free but seriously!? I don’t spend that much time in the car and listening to commercials is just major fail and it was bull!

Thank you for listening. Until next time everyone. Same Morr time, same Morr channel!

NaNo Woes (choosing the right plot)

So NaNo starts in just a few days (you’ll see a NaNo widget go up into the sidebar when it does and I would appreciate cheerleaders and support during this treacherous and tumultuous torment of tantalizing typing) and I’m at a loss for what to write. Now don’t get me wrong, I know the genre, I know the world, I know most of the characters but it’s the story that I don’t know about.

To explain further. I’ve started a world originally inspired but the music group Muse that eventually became it’s own little place in the fiction setting and is now a complete world, with maps, and gizmos, an way of life and everything. It’s a Futuristic Dystopian society and if you want to take a peek feel free. The place is called Knights of Cydonia. So that being said, I have the setting and I have quite a few plots as I have quite a few characters to follow along with arcs that encompass them all. My problem is which story should I start off with.

The story that I want to write, because I am putting off creating the character in the game right now, is a story about my character Mordria, who is a Gypsy that gets driven away from her family pack. It is an inspiring little story because I have the beginning (minus the introductions that I like to do) all planned out in my head. The problem? Is I don’t really have a direction to go with it. I don’t have middle even though I do have an end. So I can’t write a story without the meat but I don’t know what her purpose is in the story in my head.

Now on the other hand I have a completely thought out, what should happen from beginning to end story but after considering what is involved to happen I don’t think it’s the first book and starting in the middle of a series just seems silly but it might be my best option at this point but it doesn’t alleviate the problem that it’s not half as inspiring as the Mordria plot although it is more developed.

Another possibility, of course, is that I spend the next six days pondering the beginning. What started what I have now in the world. How far back do I want to go? I mean the site has a 1100 year old history. Should I write a story about the breakdown in society? I think that’s one of those chronicle books that comes out way after ta majority of others but it would technically be the beginning. When the government rose to power and did their dastardly things but I sort of want to keep some of that stuff safe from the readers and expose it like a blooming flower. I could also go with a Samuel Gufner time line, when the knights were founded but that’s again something that I don’t want to fully expose until later.

I have been developing this world for 6+ months and I don’t know where the beginning is. I guess my best bet would be to start with a character that is involved in it.

Theresa Pulsar would be the character for the New Born Program along with her husband Casius and their family. Again New Born Program is not the beginning of the story.
Violet could be a good start but the question is I don’t know where she begins and her story ends. I think what I should do is start with Julian and Violet. Maybe something romantic! NO! I have it. Julian, Violet, Fillip falling out! This will work wonders…. Maybe. I think it will. This will be perfect. the Story Arc will be Violet’s falling apart, my plan for her in the game so this will be a fun story to write.

Thanks for listening to me get it in order. Story to write: Violet’s falling out with the Knights and her redemption.

Strangest Dream (with Nerimon in it?)

So this morning I awoke remembering a piece of my dream. It was one of the strangest dreams I think I’ve ever had.

Now to start off I only started watching the guys youtube videos because he reads Twilight in a way I can understand without torturing myself through actually reading it and I think his commentary is hilarious (and a friend showed it to me) but I’ve never really watched much more then that, except the Atheist’s puzzle thing about two days ago. As for attractiveness, I don’t know. I don’t think he’s unattractive but this is just plain weird.

So my dream

The man that was in my dream was Nerimon aka Alex Day. And the dream honestly wasn’t very long but weird. I think it was a combination of reading spam yesterday and exhaustion or maybe some subliminal message that I like men that are unavailable (which I already knew and knew why).

First part of my dream involved this blog and Nerimon commented on my blog. I don’t know what it said because, well it was a dream I can’t read things in dreams. But I was so excited because I honestly don’t get a lot of legit comments but I know it was a compliment on my last blog post. I got all stoked and he started reading my blog regularly and we became friends. Then it’s starting to get hazy so I’m starting to lose the dream here. I remember it ended up with Nerimon and I in some sort of bizarre relationship and we were very happy about it.

Disclaimer: I do not know Nerimon nor think that he reads my blog. I don’t expect anything, the above was just a dream that I had last night.

My interpretation of the dream

Well I believe it’s my brain telling me what I already know. I’m lonely (despite having my kids, it’s an intimate loneliness) and I like to be infatuated with men that are completely unavailable to me. Why? Because I don’t want to burden someone with my problems and my kids. It’s a mean thing to do despite my yearn for romance and intimacy. Being divorced has pretty much solidified my intimate loneliness so I try to make up for it with my stories, obviously my fantasies and my kids. While my kids can’t give me the romance and intimacy that I want they give me love which is enough and I know it despite want for more.

Bah Humbug

You know, I’m not always the nicest person but I get really touchy when it’s that time of the month or when someone steps on my toes too many times. One of the things that steps on my toes is when someone belligerently tries to force their opinion on me. Worse still? Is it was either their way or the highway. I know I wasn’t nice about the way I approached them about this issue but they are a friend from college and I felt that our previous relationship was affecting the way he spoke to me on the forums so I laid it out harshly but directly and the end result was, “Sorry I won’t come back” not the result I wanted I just wanted him to stop outright berate me about my staff decisions. if he had a problem with the way I administer, there are private channels and he should have used them before he started telling me how to run my forum in public.

Moving on then.

I didn’t post yesterday. Sue me or something. I had a decent day. It wasn’t too full of anything except for movies and stuff as per usual.

Today wasn’t much different. I was luckily not coerced into going to church. I lost some hard worked on code when my browser crashed. Weirdly I had saved quite a bit up until then but when my browser came back up all that was there was “content”. It was disheartening. I’ll work on it again in a few days. I’m going to try a computer break tomorrow. Play some Wii games or something with my brother, more Yoga, play 10 rounds of Candyland with my kids instead of two. I don’t know. A lot.

Talented Mr Ripley is awesome. I can’t believe I never saw this movie before. It’s like a Mr Brooks but different and this movie is older. I love both of these movies. I think Mr Brooks is still slightly better in my book.

I’m going to end here because I’m in a bad mood so I hope you’re having a good day. ^_^

Not so interesting day

Today I watched the Addams family. Not just any Addams Family but the old black and white show. I think I was watching the second half of the first season, if I remember correctly. It’s filled with such awesome slapstick comedy. I remember watching this when I was younger, obviously not live because, well lets face it, I wasn’t alive in 1965. I just remember watching re-runs of the show when I was younger. The Addams Family has always been a favorite show of my family’s. We often compare our eccentric ways to that of the Addams family.

What else for today? Well I discussed more with my brother about possibly writing his Feargrant/Tnargraef story down. I think, if I can get this in a manageable state to start writing, this will be an extreme challenge for me. Want a few reasons why?

  1. The main characters aren’t generically plain – by that I mean they aren’t human, not moderately normal or pretty in any way.
  2. The main characters are male – I’m a woman and I write best from a woman’s aspect.
  3. One character is a little crazy – Okay, admittedly? I can write nuts very well but there are a few traits, like rhyming, that will be a little more difficult to deal with.
  4. The story is a little intricate but with big holes – I’m trying to figure out the story my brother has in place but trying to understand my brother some days is like trying to understand a circle. You know it goes round and round but you never know why.
  5. Understanding the structure while not understanding the entire why – There are reasons for a lot of stuff but some of it doesn’t make a lick of sense.
  6. Trying to figure out if I’ll have a bit of artistic leisure as I’ll be the one writing it – I sort of prefer the “Here’s the general story, here’s the character, have fun” sort of way.

We’ll see how it goes. I’m still slowly working on that world of mine but both stories inspire me and I just had a fantastic idea for a Dexter Fic that I might write. I really need to finish my other one and finish reading a few things before I start a million new projects.

Speaking of projects I already have Thursday’s comic figured out. Hopefully I’ll get to designing the panels come tomorrow but I think that I might do a few things before I sit at the computer. Namely Yoga.

As for the Yoga thing? I’m a big Yoga failure. I had meant to start it up, do it every morning but Sunday threw me off. I gave into the mum begging thing and I went to church again (something I find to be very good too do handy projects like Komi-himo. I’m going to get back on it tomorrow and not forget on Sunday. I especially can’t forget because my daughter liked doing it with me on Saturday and she tried to do it today without me (she snatched my book and started to pretend that she was learning, really cute actually). I need to do it for me as well. I want to lose weight and then there is my recent stress.

OMG! My recent stress. I must be really stressed because I’ve had the worse stress break outs that I think I’ve ever had. It’s driving me mad. I hope that the Yoga and stuff will help with it. I really miss my Wii Fit. A lot! Like a lot a lot. I want it back so I can feel better all over. If my brother gets a Wii I will get a new Wii Fit game and do it.

What else? What else? Oh! I was able to properly stay up and listen/ watch Tarol again tonight. I really enjoy watching him draw Goblins. He is especially entertaining when people are stupid a few of the things he said tonight:
Quote 1: “I make idiots look like bigger idiots.”
Quote 2: “I feel like I’m dissecting a frog…. made from jerk.”
It just tickled me and made my brother’s lol.

Last thing? My brother discovered Flying Vaginas in FF13.

Hope you’re having a good day. ^_^