So I feel that my Morrgroove or Morrmojo or Mojo-Jojo is gone and never coming back. I feel uninspired dull and downright blechy most days. I’ll sit at my computer and things that make me inspired and happy to do online feel like chores. It’s not supposed to be this way. My hobbies should feel fun and exciting to come home to. I should want to get all of my other stuff out of the way so I can sit down and enjoy the happy things and life. But I don’t and it depresses me.
So the normal responses that I’m sure I’ll here is “Get a new hobby” or “If it depresses you then find out why” well I don’t know why. I love being at my computer. I love writing. I love coding websites. I love making images. I LOVE Rping and yet all of these things don’t inspire me at all. This could be the 12 hour days at work but really if that’s what is killing it for me then why did I enjoy them in the first place? Because it killed time? I used to itch to get home and turn on my laptop and see all the amazing things I missed that day and regret missing it. Now it’s just one more thing I need to do.
I need my Morrmuse back. It’s gone and I can’t find it. If you see her please send her straight back with my brain. It would be muchly appreciated.
Okay! So first things first… the first thing on my brain. IPB SKINS! Okay! So I was in the bath, thinking and reading and doing that stuff that you do while you cook in water of your own roast beef filth and I had an epiphany. LETS MAKE IPB SKINS FOR PEOPLE TO DOWNLOAD!! Yeah! After that short psychotic episode I reconsidered that and how stupid it was.
What was I thinking? Not much really. I was thinking about making people poke me via Comments, Twitter Follows/comments, and having people join my site. No! Not stupid but also not something I’m willing to do. I doubt I’d ever complete a theme. I haven’t (technically) finished my Wootflakes theme. So what was I even thinking? Self promotion and themes. I probably COULD do it but I’d need more interest to even consider it.
That out of the way? My day has consisted of cleaning! Well technically it started out being woken up EARLY by my brother who works the graveyard. He woke me to get me to make breakfast, which was terrible because I didn’t make the pancakes right and the bacon was overcooked. After my family tortured themselves through breakfast I watched Zombieland! OMG! AWESOME MOVIE! I think it could have done with a little bit more of the theme park thing that it seemed to advertise but otherwise it was really awesome. I loved how they did the rules and they re-iterated them a lot throughout the movie. It was constantly inconspicuous but I loved the rules and the way they were implemented. <3 you Sparky! You are my Zombie Queen!
Other then a movie and being woken up before a zombie this morning I cleaned a lot. I’m trying to help keep my mum unstressed in her time of divorce. I guess my stepdad filed for divorce a few days ago. Total fail for him because he’s a total douche. I think that if douchebaggery came before him that he went back in time to create it. Stepdad=douche.
Last thing for today? I would like to mention that I fell in love <333 <3333 <333 with Goblins the webcomic when my brothers finally berated me enough to go and read it. NO it’s not bad I am just lazy. I’ve been reading the thing for a few months now and I still love it. Tarol the author is AWESOME!. I watched a live webcast tonight where he talks and draws. He answers questions and all that jazz. He’s really awesome. What else is there to say? He is an artist that I aspire to be like but will never attain because I don’t draw *well* and I am not so entertaining?
So what is my form of recourse? Well I will sit around, brood about it. Think that I suck a lot more. Continue writing my stupid webcomic and pretend that I am just as awesome. It’s about the same thing. The difference? I’m not as awesome. Small price to pay for blissful ignorance. ^_^
Not much else to say. Don’t forget to go look at the new Wootflakes comic and have a good day!
Gah! I’m having naughty thoughts about not posting a blog tonight. I’ve been bad enough barely even posting a blog the past few days for lack of motivation (meaning I’ve been tired and not willing enough to push out a better post then what I did) and so I’ve been naughty. This is my outlet to try and keep me a little more sane then I normally am and to just have a place to vent a little.
So today’s adventures. My mum kept pushing and poking until I went to church with her. FAIL! I mean I am not an atheist by the furthest stretch of the imagination but I’m also not Mormon anymore, I haven’t been for almost a decade. Come to think of it I find that a lot of changes in my life happened when I was 17 because that was when I also lost faith in the Mormon church. Now my mum’s Mormon, which is good and well, they have been really awesome in helping her out in this hard time, but I’m not anymore. SO! I went to church with her today and I hated it, as I knew I would. It’s boring and short of learning more ammunition for why I am not Christian any longer I don’t learn anything of value. I only let my kids go because it’s like a free play group. <_< I know… I’m bad.
What else? Nothing really. Today has been a rather boring day. It was mostly because over half of it was wasted on the waste winds of Waste Church. Bleh. It sucks. I think I got one Smiley done today and the rest of the time I’ve been a little nostalgic and missing my old site but whatever. If they’d rather ban me then pretty much say, “Listen Bitch, do what we say or else” then that’s their perogative. I really didn’t even realize I had done anything wrong until the ban message. How sad is that? C’est La Vie I guess. Doesn’t make it any better or me any happier that my friends from there don’t talk to me so much or that I got mad at some of them and told them I didn’t want to talk to them anymore. T_T Whatever. I am past it and onto better things I hope. I know it’s for the better because I’m not consumed by the site like I used to be. I still miss the people though.
I did talk to Sparky a bit today but she seemed distracted so I left her alone and Arkasel always seems distracted and I don’t think Neph cares to talk to me at all anymore. Whatever I guess.
ON A BETTER NOTE!
I think I have a majority of my webcomic for this week planned out. I haven’t started working on it yet but I have considered what I am doing. It will be NEXT weeks webcomic that I will have to be worried about. Remember that wit and comedy that I told you that I don’t have? Well I really don’t have it and once I play out this weeks comic then I think I will be tapped dry. My brother suggested an idea but I am unsure if I want to use it right away, we will see, I might. It’s corny but funny and probably worth it just for the “facepalm lol” factor. We’ll see.
I NEED MORE MEMBERS! Go to WOOTFLAKES and join. It doesn’t matter who you are, if you want to make me to smile and keep writing comics then you should come and talk to me on my forum! Alright…. You don’t have to but you would certainly make me feel warm and fuzzy if you joined and helped me get the commiunity started off by posting in topics starting some, making suggestions. All that awesome forum stuff. ^_^
Alright. I think that’s it for the night. I’m going to probably shut down my depressing computer and watch Dr Who (which will probably just depress me further, BAARROOOWMAN!!! *shakes fist*)
<3333 you all and Hope you are having a good day!
So tomorrow will be my official second webcomic. I was hoping to get more done today but I seem to have been pretty unsuccessful and I have a lot to do tomorrow on top of getting the entire thing done. I will be busy, busy bumblebee tomorrow. I have coloring of all sorts to do and I’m not even allowed to get help… Okay, that’s not true. I get a little bit of help from my daughter but I have to do a majority of it so it looks right. I am making some stuff for her to be able to learn things, like colors and shapes and things. It’s actually quite awesome because these are things I’m having a hard time teaching her. (has no patience most of the time) so having the means will be helpful in successfully getting it done. I just hope her stubbornness doesn’t get in the way of her improvement!
So I guess that informs you that I didn’t get much done today on websites or with anything really. I did a lot of cleaning, my daughter’s teacher came…. my daughter’s teacher left. We had doughnuts. Life is good.
More specifically things I did/n’t get done on my websites were:
Blog layout looks decent on Wootflakes
Designed Ebi1 R0ot!’s little self and little sister… And probably his mom but I’m not sure yet. I still need to design others but my brother is helping me with this. I’m annoyingly slow and he actually made Ebi1’s little sister and I mostly edited it. I’m glad he’s helping me or you might actually have stick figures.
Planned to make more things.
I have some smiley ideas and still have to develop a few things for tomorrow’s web comic.
Tech stuff for today? Safari is <3 Seriously! It’s better then Chrome because you can have a persistent status bar and just as clean. I’m in heaven right now. It also has a built in Firebug type functionality. What’s not to love? I guess there’s… no, not that. Hmmm… I’m sure something will irritate me about it soon enough and you’ll all get an ear full.
Okay, this is another short post. It’s late and I’m tired so I’m going to take that as a signal to go to bed.
Goodnight all. Hope you’re having a good day!!
So I’m not an amazing artist or anything, nor am I amazingly funny… Actually I’m not funny at all so you can tick that down as one of the things you know about me. BUT! Regardless of these flaws I have decided to make a webcomic to make Wootflakes more interesting!! Teh Ebi1 R0ot! has been introduced on his site in his debut comic:
I am still working out some layout kinks and deciding what all I am doing around the site but look forward to more webcomics!! I intend to make many without utter disregard for anyone actually liking the stupid thing! In other words:
I am Disinclined to Acquiesce to your Request for a better, funnier webcomic.
Putting it simply I’m not sure I will be able to meet your standards satisfactorily so I will just deny you now and save you the trouble of disappointment later on. NOW! If I happen to surprise you and actually make something good!? Don’t get your hopes up, it was probably a fluke but I would love to hear your opinions, good and really good on my newest adventure into the world of not having a job and looking for things that my substantiate me. ^_^
Hope you are all having a fantastic day!