Boyfriends

You know your boyfriend is perfect for you when they understand the priorities in your life. Not only does he understand but he goes out of his way to fix those things for or with you no matter how frustrating or annoying you can be. He snuggles you even though you are a giant and it’s difficult. He will get you anything despite how sure you are that you can get it yourself.

Today was one of those days. Something I enjoy and take pride in are my websites and when my sites are broken I get stressed, it’s worse when I have no way to fix them in a timely manner. (Like right now since I’m at work). I spazz and the boyfriend comes to the rescue by helping me. Talk about remote tech supporting.

Fabulous person that knows how much work I put into everything. H one of the few people that puts up with my nuances and my small annoying things. Not many people that you can find that appreciates you because of you predictability.

Not much originality

So my boyfriend today said I need to focus my site creating juices toward one site and get the traffic up enormously and then from there market and see what we can do about possibly revenuing it and making it to where I don’t have to have a conventional job anymore. Thinking about it, I agree but where to start? I don’t have enough motivation most of the time to keep to one project (my current ten projects proving such a thing) and figuring out a way to drive traffic to my site is elusive to me.

Of course I’m sure the first site that you think I should get going is probably Morrigan’s Madness and that seems almost a good idea. It’s the site I’ve had active and going for the longest and it’s also my blog but I don’t know of much that I could legitimately talk about that would drive more people to my site. I don’t have much originality to be honest. I talk about my strife in life and who wants to hear that? Not even I like to hear myself whine and yet I do it on here like I’m some entitled blogger or something. <_< Not really but you get what I mean.

Then there is my new site splash page Morrgasm which should be some sort of Morrigan content site with links to all of my projects, what I’m working on, what I’m doing. It’ll likely have a feed from here to keep the information flowing. It seems like a good idea but what would I publish to this site to make it worth visiting other then links to my other sites. Transferring content I don’t think is a good thing to focus on but I think that if I make it my MAIN site then it would be worth it. It would be like the ultimate splash page.

Next possibility is to really focus one of my two comic ideas. Those have the most monetary potential if you consider it. There is Morrapocalypse or Wootflakes.
Now Morrapocalypse is the Apocalyptic/Dystopic Comic that is there to both teach you something about surviving a dystopia and apocalypse as well as exposing some cliches. The skin is not done and I have no presence whatsoever but it does have a domain sister of Morrdystopia that has a forum on it.
Wootflakes on the other hand is a geeky little spork that has mostly nerd humor. The skin is done but needs to be re-created and I already have some basis done I would just need to focus on getting them up regularly and advertising it.

My other option is RPers Anonymous which is the site that I have the most focus on but the hardest time finding a software that is worth it and I can’t afford to straight upgrade my server to a VPS to get the software that mostly works and I certainly don’t have a few thousand to throw down to get it made and I’d have to go back to school to get the personal knowledge because all the crash courses that I’ve been through doesn’t really teach me proper security and security is important for what I’m looking for. So this idea is my primary one but I don’t have the money to throw at it.
I guess with this, if I wanted to upgrade, I could do hosting packages for RPers for small fees and it would include cPanel but I don’t know I guess it would depend I’d need enough interest in it to make up for the cost of the VPS. It’ would be something simple like maybe 3 bucks a month or 5 a month with Morr Support. I guess I should see how the free hosting goes first.

Last one is RP Status which is mostly supposed to be an addition to RPA so focusing on it would be silly other then posting to it updates. So it wouldn’t be worth it without it’s counterpart and see above for the problems with that.

I guess there is one other, Faerie Reverie which is supposed to be a site (whenever I finish it) about kids especially my kids even though they drive me crazy. It could be something of an ideas to play with your kids (as I normally don’t see pretty sites like it) but that would require me being a more involved parent and I don’t have time for it most of the time. I’d have to figure out ways to make things fun for my kids without spoiling them.

Another idea is to get Sex is Business off the ground which again would require a little money from me including getting my breasts done like I want to do and fixing my teeth. This one would be the site that I have photos of myself for sell in naughty ways. This is my preferred method but I don’t know how to market a site like this. It would definitely be a ton of fun starting out with certain photos and moving from there but again what to do.

My other domains like Knights of Cydonia, Card Rebellion, and Brain Damage are all RPGs so they aren’t something to make money off of as they are simply hobby. The others Woothappens and Lady Pirate are re-directors to other domains and I just have them for prettiness and show. So needless to say these aren’t options.

Now what do I want to get from my endeavors? Enough money to financially support my ability to stay at home and work on them. This is my end all goal. With that it would give me the ability to do my other desires including writing a book without the drain of muse. So needless to say I’m already blech about this all. I want so much more and I can’t attain it and I can’t make a decision on what to focus on.

I think my primary focus (until I decide) is to get Morrgasm up so I have my proper splash site and to-do list and determine my top priority. Feel free to post your opinion of this here as I’m always looking for feedback and suggestions. If you like an idea let me know and I’ll try and put more weight on that.

Morrgroove Gone

So I feel that my Morrgroove or Morrmojo or Mojo-Jojo is gone and never coming back. I feel uninspired dull and downright blechy most days. I’ll sit at my computer and things that make me inspired and happy to do online feel like chores. It’s not supposed to be this way. My hobbies should feel fun and exciting to come home to. I should want to get all of my other stuff out of the way so I can sit down and enjoy the happy things and life. But I don’t and it depresses me.

So the normal responses that I’m sure I’ll here is “Get a new hobby” or “If it depresses you then find out why” well I don’t know why. I love being at my computer. I love writing. I love coding websites. I love making images. I LOVE Rping and yet all of these things don’t inspire me at all.  This could be the 12 hour days at work but really if that’s what is killing it for me then why did I enjoy them in the first place? Because it killed time? I used to itch to get home and turn on my laptop and see all the amazing things I missed that day and regret missing it. Now it’s just one more thing I need to do.

I need my Morrmuse back. It’s gone and I can’t find it. If you see her please send her straight back with my brain. It would be muchly appreciated.

Nothing Special

So tomorrow will be my official second webcomic. I was hoping to get more done today but I seem to have been pretty unsuccessful and I have a lot to do tomorrow on top of getting the entire thing done. I will be busy, busy bumblebee tomorrow. I have coloring of all sorts to do and I’m not even allowed to get help… Okay, that’s not true. I get a little bit of help from my daughter but I have to do a majority of it so it looks right. I am making some stuff for her to be able to learn things, like colors and shapes and things. It’s actually quite awesome because these are things I’m having a hard time teaching her. (has no patience most of the time) so having the means will be helpful in successfully getting it done. I just hope her stubbornness doesn’t get in the way of her improvement!

So I guess that informs you that I didn’t get much done today on websites or with anything really. I did a lot of cleaning, my daughter’s teacher came…. my daughter’s teacher left. We had doughnuts. Life is good.

More specifically things I did/n’t get done on my websites were:
Blog layout looks decent on Wootflakes
Designed Ebi1 R0ot!’s little self and little sister… And probably his mom but I’m not sure yet. I still need to design others but my brother is helping me with this. I’m annoyingly slow and he actually made Ebi1’s little sister and I mostly edited it. I’m glad he’s helping me or you might actually have stick figures.
Planned to make more things.

I have some smiley ideas and still have to  develop a few things for tomorrow’s web comic.

Tech stuff for today? Safari is <3 Seriously! It’s better then Chrome because you can have a persistent status bar and just as clean. I’m in heaven right now. It also has a built in Firebug type functionality. What’s not to love? I guess there’s… no, not that. Hmmm… I’m sure something will irritate me about it soon enough and you’ll all get an ear full.

Okay, this is another short post. It’s late and I’m tired so I’m going to take that as a signal to go to bed.

Goodnight all. Hope you’re having a good day!!

Nothin’ to report

Okay, I really did lie about the whole “I won’t use lines from movies thing” I mean I’ve now brought in the Incredibles. I fail. #morrfail

ALRIGHT! Now time to give all you people something to stare at, go ‘WTF!?’ and move on.

First thing for today…. I GOT SOMETHING DONE! Oh yeah, that’s right! I created a replacement article for IPB to allow admins to replace non-existent profile pictures with avatars, as long as they have an avatar. I’m sure I didn’t find everywhere on the main board but I got most of the essential places for it and I will eventually add the Blogs and Galleries as well. It was a sense of accomplishment of getting it working and then to be promoted on Coder’s Refuge made be all the more happy! Why? Probably because I had this strong sense of accomplishment for the day.

After I succeeded in this adventure I felt the need to not do anything for hours but I was unable to. I simply moved on to attempting more dangerous feats. Next…. I looked at the code I need to change *ie the CSS for the) blogs and then said “Screw that” and went to do other things. Like chat with people for a few hours and help my daughter work on her homework.

Then, toward the end of my fantastically adventurous day I began to re-vamp Ebi1 R0ot! to be more scalable. This means that I adnventured into the dangerous land of Illustrator. It was scary. I had to keep my wits about me so I wouldn’t throw my poor, defenseless, innocent computer across the room in frustration. Luckily I was successful and even more so when I created the new Ebi1 R0ot! Why do you ask? Mostly because I’d rather revamp him now instead of in a year. Another reason is that my brother helped me and lastly? Because he looks so much cuter now. You can see him at his site, Wootflakes

WOW! Today really is a nothing to report sort of day. I haven’t really much else to talk about. Successful coding, successful coloring (I even stayed in the lines) and successful ignoring things that I probably should have been doing.

Kid stuff?
Day 1 with the potty, still no interest but he does know that the thing makes a sound, he just doesn’t know how yet.
My daughter still has a cold and is coughing up a storm. I hope she feels better soon.

You know, speaking of kids, I wish computers were cheaper and I had a bit extra money to buy two cheap laptops for my kids to use. They always want to play games on my laptop but I swear to god they are like master genius of messing up every setting known to man, even ones that haven’t been made yet. It’s like a black hole of settings and they know how to change every single one of them without a bat of an eyelash. At least on their own computers I wouldn’t care what they did and I can disable access to evil things like the Internet and porn and things. Well probably, more specifically, pictures of me and my own websites. This site is certainly not intended for children. If it is, or it seems that way… You were completely mislead.

OKAY! Now I think that’s really it. Mostly because I’m tired and falling asleep at the keyboard again. Also my brain has melted from a day of awesome!

Goodnight everyone. Hope you’re having a good day. ^_^

Cosmic Powers that be… aka My Brother David

I believe in a lot of stuff and cosmic powers and protection of the dead and all of that sort of thing is part of it. I know that I am not always the nicest of people, I actually am a bottler, I prefer to keep it all inside until the bottle gets too full to keep the lid on and then it bubbles out and eventually erupts like someone shook it up.

To those that experience this…. I apologize. I don’t mean to lash out at you but most of the time I don’t properly channel my rage.
That being said. I would like to specifically apologize to Neph. You’re probably one of my best friends and I don’t mean to take any of my angry energy out on you.

Over the years I’ve worked on it… you guys should have seen me 7 years ago, just out of high school…. But this doesn’t mean that I have it completely under control and I’m sorry.

As for the subject of this… I think that my recent upset, fueled by my dead brother David’s birthday  -which is today mind you – was helped along by my brother. My unintentional rage got me banned from a favorite site of mine without warning… which I take offense to since I have been a part of this site for a year. I think that a warning, suspension or something a little more appropriate then an outright ban for snippy behavior, would have been more appropriate but who cares? I’ve taken the motto C’est La Vie for a reason. I think this reason was because my brother was trying to tell me that I need to calm down and start easing myself back into things I really enjoy instead of spending my time in an alternate reality with other people, that it’s time for me to probably start making my alternate realities and writing my own stuff again, take up my old hobbies, design websites again…. to really settle myself in my head instead of letting a whole bunch of other people dictate my musedom.

For this I love my brother even though I hate what happened (and the way it happened) and I hate not being able to enjoy the people there that I enjoyed for so long. To those that I hurt their feelings. I’m sorry loves.

I hoped you all have a fantastic day. <3333

PS. I’m going to get a comparison picture of my son and my brother David to show how much they look alike…. it’s uncanny.