So I feel that my Morrgroove or Morrmojo or Mojo-Jojo is gone and never coming back. I feel uninspired dull and downright blechy most days. I’ll sit at my computer and things that make me inspired and happy to do online feel like chores. It’s not supposed to be this way. My hobbies should feel fun and exciting to come home to. I should want to get all of my other stuff out of the way so I can sit down and enjoy the happy things and life. But I don’t and it depresses me.
So the normal responses that I’m sure I’ll here is “Get a new hobby” or “If it depresses you then find out why” well I don’t know why. I love being at my computer. I love writing. I love coding websites. I love making images. I LOVE Rping and yet all of these things don’t inspire me at all. This could be the 12 hour days at work but really if that’s what is killing it for me then why did I enjoy them in the first place? Because it killed time? I used to itch to get home and turn on my laptop and see all the amazing things I missed that day and regret missing it. Now it’s just one more thing I need to do.
I need my Morrmuse back. It’s gone and I can’t find it. If you see her please send her straight back with my brain. It would be muchly appreciated.
So yesterday I didn’t post. No excuse really, I fell asleep after a nice bath to soak my bones and muscles. It was a long day and I didn’t have the energy to do much after I put my kids to sleep.
So, onto the days activities (or yesterdays).
So I woke up and called my daughter’s teacher explaining that I couldn’t get her the vaccination and she said she’d call me back. She called me back and said that she’d work it out when I got to the class. We went to the class and there seemed to be no problems. Fantastic. Afterward it was a drive to the Zoo, waiting and then we got to go inside the zoo!
Well a zoo, like any other zoo, has a lot of animals and involves a lot of walking. With a two year old and a four year old (the forgotten stroller at home) it was a long day of looking and making sure they didn’t run away too far from me. Now this was probably one of the many times I’ve considered getting those child leashes. It was a lot of chasing and, sadly, yelling to make sure that my daughter didn’t run too far off with her friend Nate. Now I’m 25, I’m not old, I just don’t move very fast because I like to relax as I go. On top of that I was also carrying my son the entire time because he didn’t want to walk very often. Up, down, stop go. It was a long day and probably would have been better had I remembered the stroller for my son. >_<
We saw lots of animals. Giraffes I think was my daughter’s favorite along with the bear and the elephants and the monkeys and the horses.
I think my favorite part was either dancing on the endangered animal carousel between my kids OR! Petting the stingrays. They feel slimey but it’s awesome and my daughter got to touch one. Unfortunately she dropped the shrimp so she didn’t get to feed them. Yeah I’m weird but dancing on a carousel is hard because the centripetal force throws off your balance a little.
Also I think I took on Best Dressed Mom yesterday. I wore my black and white sundress with black goth boots and messy bun hair (which got messier from the son on the shoulders).
So it was a good day, long day and my kids had a ton of fun and I got to dance. All around win. It was even more win that my kids fell asleep almost the moment I started the car. It was cute and I’ll post the blurry pictures on twitpic here in a bit.
Yesterday must have been exhausting because I put my kids to bed at about 7 and I crashed and went to bed with them. Why was I tired? I have absolutely no idea but I apologize now for missing my post last night and will update you now on the fabulous day of yesterday.
Yesterday I wasted 3 more hours at church. The time wasn’t completely wasted as I took my komi-himo (Japanese braiding) with me and that helped a lot with the boredom. I go to please my mother. She needs me right now in this time, after my stepdad filed for divorce. Small things help her feel good, so I oblige with little groaning.
The day didn’t really develop from there. There wasn’t much to do. I know I need to do a little more cleaning about the house, hopefully that will get done today but I mildly doubt it because I really need to get motivated to do it. The laundry is almost done though. That’s always a good thing, especially since about 2/3rds of it was mine from storage. <_< Well C’est La Vie. It will be done soon enough, hopefully before my mum completely spazz’s out but probably won’t be.
Okay, so I didn’t post a blog last night. My apologies. I’m sort of addicted to watching people play this trilogy of games, God of War. I watched my ex play through one and two and my brother got three a few days ago and last night I was watching him play until four in the morning…. well sort of. I fell asleep about 3 or four times in the process of watching him play but I was doing that last night instead of producing a fantastic blog for everyone to read. Why? Because I could and because I wanted to watch the epicness that is God of War. On top of that I was really a little (lot) disappointed with Alice in Wonderland.
Yeah! I’m a big Alice in Wonderland fan and I went to finally see Alice in Wonderland yesterday, as excited to see it as I’ve ever been, and I left feeling empty inside. It was like the movie was the perfect soup, it had all of the right ingredients but something was still off about it. I mean I think that making Alice in Wonderland dark and all that is a fantastic idea. I loved the cast, the director but not the movie. I think this movie was by far my biggest let down of a movie that I had ever seen. I don’t see many movies in theaters and I feel like I sort of wasted my time with watching this one instead of waiting until it came out on DVD. I probably should have just waited for Prince of Persia. Sadly? I think the credits were my favorite part. <_<
I think that’s it for my yesterday updates.
Today! I went to the Arboretum with my mum and kids and my mum’s friend Hilary and her kids. It was the first time I have been and it was enjoyable. It was like a nice long nature walk. Fun. I’m pretty sore from the adventure mostly because I don’t exercise a lot but I am thinking about taking up Yoga. I find that the Wii Fit *when I could find the silly thing* made me really happy with the Yoga stuff. I think I’ll be buying myself a new Wii and a new Wii fit since I have to send mine to my ex. I just need something calming that I think I need to start and end the day out with. Nothing too intense because it exhausts me and I prefer to relax and be more aware.
I’m putting together my newest webcomic. Another one that I will probably be the only one that understands the joke but if you want to understand it then please feel free to ask me, I’m always glad to fill you in on my bizarre bit of humor.
Okay, I’d probably talk and prattle on more but my brother is playing God of War and I have a comic to post tomorrow!
Hope you’re having a good day! ^_^
So I’m going to make this quick because this makes me sad. I had my interview yesterday and I thought it went pretty well. Today I got a call back to inform me that I did not get the job.
So sad days. Otherwise the day was good. I hope your day was good too. ^_^