Behind the Grind

While I, as a RPers, know what it is like to be behind the grind of your posts being behind on NaNo is exhausting. At least on a RP you can tell someone that your reply may take a few days and then you have a grace period with NaNo if you get behind it’s like a scramble to get caught up. I didn’t NaNo for 5 days because I was exhausted after my daughter’s birthday and I’m still behind. I feel like I’m never going to get caught up writing 2K to 2.5K every night before bed and I’m still 2.5K words behind.

It’s tiring! Good gravy it’s tiring! I stay up until midnight every night and get up at 6:30 every morning. I’m ready for a break! The only problem with taking a break means that I have to do more catching up.

No rest for the weary I guess.

I’m hoping that here in the next day or so I will get caught up. Zayzie has been helping me push to get the words out but I haven’t surpassed quite yet. I know that the Writer’s chat room helps.

OH! WTF Batman!? I write similar to the way I RP but I have a particular tactic that I make sure my story is cohesive and if something doesn’t work right that is stopping my ability to continue forward then I fix it before I continue. WHY the HELL!? would everyone sit here and tell me to skip it and move on. If it’s not working right now how in the hell is skipping it to go to the next part going to make it any better? All I’m doing is continuing the dredge of the not making sense world and it won’t make any more sense  if I keep writing or not. In fact it will probably make less sense and then I’ll just have a mass jumble of words by the end of it. Don’t tell me to just “skip it”! That doesn’t work. Skipping the problem doesn’t make the problem go away. Trust me, I have an ex husband and if I could skip over the problem I would but I can’t. It has to make sense or else I dwell, I  brood, and I can’t write. I have to fix the problem!!! I don’t understand how anyone thinks that skipping the problem will make it go away or make it work somehow. Changing/fixing is the only way to go. Ask Tim Gunn.

RAWR!!!!!!!!

Note to everyone that wants to help me when I say a scene isn’t working:

  • Cheer me on!
  • Help me work it out!
  • Give me a pat on the back!
  • Snug me!
  • HELP ME!
  • DON’T, FOR THE LOVE OF ALL THINGS LIVING, TELL ME TO SKIP IT! That fucking aggravates me more then life itself!

Also, for the past few weeks my life (particularly my driving life) was filled with music fail. First, on the cable Dance channel there was all medium speed unfamiliar dance music and it wasn’t all that dancey, it was more of a trance and it wasn’t inspiring to do anything. Then in the car, every time I get in, either it was the same song or the commercials for most of my trip. I mean, commercials keep music free but seriously!? I don’t spend that much time in the car and listening to commercials is just major fail and it was bull!

Thank you for listening. Until next time everyone. Same Morr time, same Morr channel!

About Morrigan

I'm a divorced mother of two trying to find a knack in life. I am unsure if I've found it yet but I'm working on it. It is one of those things that you have to take time to find and unfortunately I'm impatient.
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