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Oh the pain and pleasure of editing! Pretty much I have gotten stuck somewhere around chapter 7 which is 50 pages into the story. Now I know why I'm stuck, I have neglected important information that one of the characters needs in order to continue on. Well that is never a good thing and often time gets to what I'm stuck in... writer's block. I'm not fully blocked I'm just having a hard time continuing with the story since the character that needs the information doesn't have it. So what should I do? Well if you are like half of the other writers that I know that say "just keep writing" then leave me be. You obviously have no idea, not only how, but why my brain works the way it does. If you are a psychologist perhaps you could tell me. Pretty much, since the story doesn't have the information my muse/character/person that I'm writing for refuses to continue to write as if they have the information. since they refuse to write I have to go back and fix it. Why not power through it like half of the other writers in the world seem to think I should? Because it doesn't feel right, it doesn't work to just keep going. If the character needs the information just powering through it may leave that information out, even in edits. So my brain shuts down until I fix it. So that being said I have been working on re-reading the previous parts of my story and editing as I go to find the best place to interject the information that I need, to add it so that the character has it. now re-reading some of my chapters I see some of the more major flaws that I had in them. They are even a little stale or lacking in detail which makes me glad for this initial re-write. It makes me happy that I can question my motivation and how I'm portraying the information to the reader. I now know that I need to put forth more detail in my work. More mannerisms, more information. I realize that I show absolutely no motivation or information for why Fillip or Violet are the way they are or even what happened to Violet and Kane. After this realization I also realized that I never intended to elaborate so you would just have to deal with half the information that you would need to properly understand the character dynamics between them so I need to add that information in somewhere as well. Like how long have Violet, Fillip and Kane known each other? Are they friends? Lovers? Have they ever been? Will they ever be again? What is their relation to one another in the story? While I know that information, I realize that I'm not providing that information to the reader. So in essence a pre-edit edit to fix my writers block is proving to be a good thing. In other news I am thinking about finishing Card Rebellion, the Alice in Wonderland RP I was wanting to work on. I have it half done. I need to finish the detail information and the premade list and once I've done that then I think it would be ready. I think I would definitely need a reliable co-admin, someone that could be there when I'm not. Unfortunately I can never seem to find one of those. Madness news we have a Facebook Connect app so if you like my facebook page you will get Madness updates every time I post. So please do so and you will get e-cookies. I may also be adding a Facebook widget to the sidebar so I can see who loves me most. <333 ;) I have also joined a few Sites, if you want to friend or add me on them just send me a message in any fashion you know how to get a hold of me (which normally is a lot of ways) or PM me on the site directly. The sites I've joined are as follows: RedRoom Authonomy GoodReads Add me, follow me, whatever. I <33 you if you want to chat. Definitely have no problem doing it while I'm online. Lastly, I think, Knights of Cydonia is doing very well. The activity picked up last week so if you want to be a part of my story book world before it even reaches print (it's sort of a laxer AU version but it works) then come check us out and join Knights of Cydonia!
So as always I Morr fuck things up. I swear I have a natural aversion to goods things in my life. It's like when good things come my way I avoid them like the plague but when bad things come I'm attracted to it like a magnet. The newest Morrfuckup is that I met this guy (and don't groan and be like oh one of those stories. STFU and listen) and it turns out that we have a lot in common. Mind you I've recently discovered that since I like a lot of things that I have a lot in common with a lot of guys. It's really easy to find things that you have in common if you have a lot to be in common about, but it's oddly different. I'm talking right down to the enjoying Hentai and porn here people. But anyways, I digress. So I fucked things up last night and really it is my fault and I know it is. I get overly sensitive especially when I don't fully understand the gravity of what I'm not supposed to be let in on and it hurts, I'll add a needless to say that I wasn't in the best of moods because it was in fact the Anniversary of my brother David's Death and it always hits me like a ton of bricks when I'm thinking it isn't coming for me. ANYWAYS! I got upset for no reason but it was a reason because I didn't understand and I know that's part of me but then when I tried to cheer him up he snapped at me and that just hurt my feelings and I've been hurt ever since. Now afterward, this is one thing that we work on different wavelengths on and it's difficult for me because part of it goes over my head and the other part of it just hits a brick wall and it totally throws me for a loop but he has no mannerisms. Or let me correct and say he has few mannerisms and it makes it hard to read. Now he tells me to just ask but I don't like to ask. I feel pesteringy when I ask because I feel like that's all I'm doing but he tells me to do it anyways and the other thing is that I have never been able to take things at face value. Ever. People don't talk like that. There is always underlying innuendo or something that I'm missing and even with what happened there was because I just didn't know the difference between upset and freaking out. It's a big difference and it makes it difficult to know what to do if I don't know what that difference is. Another difference is when I'm upset, no matter how I'm upset (sometimes even when I tell you to get the fuck away) I want to be cheered up or pushed back on. I like to know I'm wanted and I know he wants me but instead of getting push back I pretty much just fell over. Zayzie did cheer me up a bit but then I fell right back down the pit when I talked to him today. So I said mean things that I did and didn't mean. At least I think so. I've been hurt and I'm sad and all cry-ey which is really odd. I only say that because of all of the boys I've been with I didn't cry for too long afterwards or regret it really either. I mean I sometimes wish there were ways to fix it but looking back I'm better off without and I really regret the things I said. He's mad at me and I understand. I broke up with him because I was upset. I'm a Morron. I feel bad and I love him but I don't know if it's fixable. I hate when I can't fix it. Another thing is he doesn't like when I apologize but I apologize a lot. It's just something I do. Whether it's because I'm a submissive or I'm genuine or I feel that it's the way to get everyone happy again. I like when people are happy. I like to be happy so I apologize and he hates it and he snaps at me about that too. I don't know what to do to fix it as I can't wipe it away but C'est La Vie. As always. I fuck everything up. I am a horrible person. And we weren't even testing for that. #Morrfail